Lilium actress Shara Wilson, who recently revealed that she had been diagnosed with schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, says she has moved to the U.S. to escape the “cult.”
“I’m a little more introverted and I’m a bit less connected to the world and I was like, ‘What the fuck?
I don’t feel like I belong here,'” Wilson told MTV News in an exclusive interview from her home in New York City.
“It’s so isolating to live like this.
I don and I never want to live that way again.”
Wilson, 35, who appeared in the 2016 cult comedy The Book of Eli, was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 2010 and has been in treatment ever since.
But after receiving treatment for schizophrenia and major depression, Wilson says she found that her mental health deteriorated.
“I was always on a downward spiral,” she told MTV.
“Then, it just got to the point where I felt like I had to get away.
And it just became so overwhelming, like, you know, this is the only way I’m going to live my life.”
Wilson said that she was not aware of the Internet and social media until she received treatment for her mental illness.
“People are like, how can you do this to yourself?” she said.
“How can you say this to your friends and family and say, ‘I don’t need anybody?
I’m not doing this because I’m mentally ill?
Why are you talking to me?'”
Wilson said she also has trouble controlling her impulses.
“Every time I see somebody, I’m like, I can’t do this.
It’s like I’m so angry,” she said, laughing.
“Like, I need to get off of my soap box, and I need my own space.”